Happines - Is it really hard to find?

Dear friends,

I have been feeling a bit emotional for the past few days. I really appreciate that some of you who have always been there and care for my being. I'd like to share with you one of the piece that I wrote last year this day. Thanks to facebook for reminding me because I can't believe I wrote this :P. I hope you enjoy and feel free to give me your feedback. I love writing as you can see and I want to improve my writing a lot :). I know a lots of you are well educated so please be my mentors and lead me the way <3333333. 

Oct 24th, 2015

We grow up through our journeys of life.
We live, we learn, we experience all kind of emotions that we can feel in our bodies.
We laugh, we cry, we sing, we scream.
Then we laugh all over again. We live and love to find happiness but we fail to realize that happiness is not a fancy thing. It's simple and easy to find but we think too much. We make our lives more complicated so happiness seems to be hard to get.
I remember there was a story I read about a mathematic student. "He was a great student. He was on top of his class. He went to math competitions and won several prices in math. He could solve the most difficult math problem. And one day, a teacher gave a very easy, simple math problem. He tried so hard but he couldn't get it done. His classmate was able to solve the problem in no time. But he couldn't. Then he realized that he had been doing so much complicating math problem that he had forgotten the most basic one..."

Happiness is like that, it's right in front of you if you notice it. If you keep looking for it elsewhere, you will take a long time to find it...Or never find it at all. Sometimes, you just have to be simple to be happy. Sometimes you just have to love to be loved.

King Of the Month - August & September

Please forgive me for being late :PPPP

Thank you so much for your love and support always <3. Funny how I get to put these 2 together. They are crazy but they are adorable. I adore them so much. You may see them on and off just like a flash light; leave me a bunch of tokens and disappear for a few months. I thought they would get lost but then they appear again when I least expect. You 2 are nuts and I love you guys <3 Thank you for being there SOMETIMES to make my day brighter and my heart lighter <3<3 <3

Kissesss

It's half way to October already!

Hello everyone,

I know this is my fault for being such a slacker for the past 2 months. You know sometimes you just want to give up and then other times you are all excited. The thing is, if you keep pushing it forward you will feel the passion again. I have been in a confusing zone it seems and I am not sure if my conscience is clear yet. But I am trying to drag myself to be back to normal again to be back to the time when I wake up every morning I feel excited to get on cam and share my day with you <3. I really need to have a proper schedule to go online because to be online all the time is not good for my mental health and physical health.

I enjoy putting on a good show, meeting new people every day or talking to the ones that I always see. Some of you always make me smile and laugh. For the first time in my life that I feel like I have control of myself and my life in general. Still, I cannot lose my regular day life where I have to see people outside of my cam world. It's been almost 7 months that I get into this lifestyle and I have enjoyed and appreciated every single moment of it because it has brought me to a world that I would never thought of going in and it has helped me to be financially independent. With this being said, I'd like to thank you to all of you who have always been supporting me, big or small, regular or once in a while folks. You guys are my gems <3.

This cam world is addicting, I just can't stay away from it >.<

I look forward to spending more time and getting to know each and everyone of you more and more each other. Thank you for being a party of my life, my under world, my darkest secrest :).

Kissess & Hugssssss

Hello Sept

Hello everyone,

I know its a bit late to say hello Sept, it's still the first week so I think it's still count right? It has been hectic for the past 2-3 weeks. I have been busy with lots of stuff offline thats why I haven't been online consistently. But by the end of this weekend I'll be back online for sure. It's already another month and I have to admit that working as a cam model has granted me the freedom to do and get things I like. I am very blessed to have you all by my side. I am not sure how many of you read this but I am happy that few of you actually care about me on here so I am very grateful to all of you.

Camming is a part of my life now and I will do my best to improve everyday :). There is time I will be questioning about my lifestyle and there is time I feel truly blessed to have discovered this lifestyle. I know a lot of people but I don't have a lot of friends that I can share this kind of lifestyle with. You all are my friends. For those who actually have gotten to know me, I feel that I can share everything with you. My secret is hard to reveal to anyone outside of this mini world. I am very glad that we get to share everything. The last month has been a bit of a roller coaster for me. I've been moody and a bit down. Once in awhile, get away from the stuff you're used to do is a good thing I guess. I miss you guys tho, but I need to get my mojo back to be able to go online. I don't wanna be a debby downer LuLz. Anyway, some of you have been supportive so Thank YOU!!!! I promise to be back on cam with full energy and focus :). I'm planning to write a series of stories but don't know how to start. I have a few ideas in my mind already :0
The girl gotta make them tokens ya know {dream} or I'll go homeless :(.

Kissessss

Love, Sex And People

I wrote this piece a few years ago and just recently found it. So I am going to share with you guys. I can't even believe myself that I wrote this. I also did a revision because a few years ago my English weren't really good at all :).

Remember, this time I was young and curios about pretty much everything.

February 19th, 2013

I came across some ads on Craigslist which was at the Talent section where people would recruit models/actress/actors/… who would do acting and modelling. Most of the ads were looking for nude models, or actress/actor for adult movie. Also, there were some ads which were looking private hostesses for bachelor parties or gentlemen club’s parties. The pay were great the the ad that caught my attention the most was a guy trying to hire girls to be  his fake girlfriends. The chosen girl would get paid for just doing that, it sounded great right? That ad made me wonder. I messaged the guy and asked him if he wouldn’t mind tell me why he wanted to hire girls to be his fake girlfriend instead finding the real one. He didn’t answer but just asked me if I wanted to be one. I told him I already have a boyfriend. He asked me how much my boyfriend paid me, I said,”his life”. The guy stopped message me.

I’ve been living in Vancouver for almost 8 years and I’ve always been interested in watching and observing people. I've changed a lot after living in Vancouver for more than seven years. Sometimes I can’t even believe myself of how I have changed. I’ve become more mature. However, I also have become more distance to the people I used to be close to. I've come to learn that society can be a big impact in my life.

I see a lot of lonely men and women and they are 40 years old and up. I wonder why they are not with someone. If there are 1 or 2 I can understand, but there are lot of them. You know why that is? Because people here they always care about themselves so much. Always the "I" come first. I find that if the "I" always come first, people will end up with the "myself". They have their guards up all the time to protect themselves. They don’t open up. When you think of nothing but about yourself then you’ll end up with yourself. Some men are in their fifty and yet they don’t have a wife or kid. Their lives are just like that, tasteless. This is the different between Asian and Western. We, Asian people always put family first. No matter what you do, at a certain age, Asian people always try to have their children settled down. Most Asian children respect and listen to parents' opinions.