Love, Sex And People

I wrote this piece a few years ago and just recently found it. So I am going to share with you guys. I can't even believe myself that I wrote this. I also did a revision because a few years ago my English weren't really good at all :).

Remember, this time I was young and curios about pretty much everything.

February 19th, 2013

I came across some ads on Craigslist which was at the Talent section where people would recruit models/actress/actors/… who would do acting and modelling. Most of the ads were looking for nude models, or actress/actor for adult movie. Also, there were some ads which were looking private hostesses for bachelor parties or gentlemen club’s parties. The pay were great the the ad that caught my attention the most was a guy trying to hire girls to be  his fake girlfriends. The chosen girl would get paid for just doing that, it sounded great right? That ad made me wonder. I messaged the guy and asked him if he wouldn’t mind tell me why he wanted to hire girls to be his fake girlfriend instead finding the real one. He didn’t answer but just asked me if I wanted to be one. I told him I already have a boyfriend. He asked me how much my boyfriend paid me, I said,”his life”. The guy stopped message me.

I’ve been living in Vancouver for almost 8 years and I’ve always been interested in watching and observing people. I've changed a lot after living in Vancouver for more than seven years. Sometimes I can’t even believe myself of how I have changed. I’ve become more mature. However, I also have become more distance to the people I used to be close to. I've come to learn that society can be a big impact in my life.

I see a lot of lonely men and women and they are 40 years old and up. I wonder why they are not with someone. If there are 1 or 2 I can understand, but there are lot of them. You know why that is? Because people here they always care about themselves so much. Always the "I" come first. I find that if the "I" always come first, people will end up with the "myself". They have their guards up all the time to protect themselves. They don’t open up. When you think of nothing but about yourself then you’ll end up with yourself. Some men are in their fifty and yet they don’t have a wife or kid. Their lives are just like that, tasteless. This is the different between Asian and Western. We, Asian people always put family first. No matter what you do, at a certain age, Asian people always try to have their children settled down. Most Asian children respect and listen to parents' opinions.